Wasting time

Ive been tossing up between a certain issue the last couple of week, although the thought has always been there, my insecurities stop me from acting on impulse and analyzing it in a way which would ensure I'm never happy nor loved. I think, discuss, analyze, reason, all with no success. Only one thing has actually hit me as being a profound. This came in the form of a friend breaking up with his GF on sad pretenses.

"so don't waste time"

Four words that made me realize all the time i spend thinking, discussing, analyzing and reasoning could have been spent on strengthening ties and testing the waters. Why dip your toes in, when you can swim? jump straight in.

Anyways to my second radiotherapy treatment today seemed so much more difficult to cope with then my last. I lay there for over twenty minutes while the various radiotherapist and students fiddled with my head until it was in perfect position to provide 0.5mm precision.
I managed to open my eyes inside the mask this time, and to my surprise there was indeed a laser show, green lasers shooting all around the room as the giant machine rotated around me. Quite pretty, but still, i fell asleep and had a rude awaking by an impatient nurse. what happen to bedside manner ?! Twenty Six treatments to go ! Yayyy !

Can't wait for this weekend, Jeri Lee and Helen Su at St James ! Usually I'm not bothered going for girls in bikini's but Dennis is an avid supporter of girls in underwear and insists i help him get a picture with them, so i suppose im going along for the ride ! haha

Gen + Me + Suzie [@ St James Las week]

Speaking of Dennis' , Introducing My Future husband - Dennis Joseph O'neil aka Dennis Oh, Half Korean/ Half American Model. Born 29th August 1981 which makes him 27 this year!
Why cant all guys be this perfect looking ? *drool*


Who needs a real guy when they can one in their fantasy's ! haha


-- Kitty xx