Fin !

Today was the final day of my radiation therapy which marks the end of my treatment for the time being which is definitely a cause to celebrate !

So far I've had - One brain surgery, Two weeks in hospital, Six weeks of Steriotactic radiotherapy, Tens of MRIs and CT's, Countless Appointments for various doctors and hundreds of injections. So thinking that this is going to end for awhile bring a little peace.

Believe it or not i actually felt somewhat nostalgic when leaving for the last time, Knowing it will be the last time i'll be walking down the halls of Westmeade hospital, into radiation oncology into LA1 (the machine i was on) and having them shoot radiation into my tumor while i'm strapped into a skintight mask.

... actually... doesn't sound so good when i think about it that way ...

nonetheless, it was kinda sad walking out for the last time because the radiologist from the other teams that treated me first all came in to say bye to me. i almost cried..

that was until , i was informed by a friend in a DIFFERENT hospital in the same faculty that people were "discussing" (read: bitching) about my "eccentric" dress sense !

That's so mean !! how did news of my dress sense reach different hospitals ?! I swear people gossip so much !

Just because i came in to treatment for the first two weeks dressed as a Japanese schoolgirl, the next two weeks in business wear and the last two weeks in black top to bottom does not give them an excuse to mock me ! so mean >< !

So what if i dress "eccentric" ?! i think everyday should be like a dress up party ! they are just jealous they have to come into work everyday wearing the same navy blue pants, the same white polo and the same navy sweater ! (gosh that sounds like my school uniform!)

I can already tell which radiologists it was! but it doesnt bother me ! everyone is entitled to their own opinion ! and i've become accustomed to the gossip over the years...

People will always talk, it's up to you whether you want to let it effect you or not.

Don't get me wrong, i love listening to gossip as much as anyone does, but when it comes to assuming i know the personality of the person in question, gossip usually is misleading. Ive had many experiences where i hear a whole bunch of incriminating things about people only to find out when i meet them that they are as sweet as pie. I'm pretty sure people have realized the same about me as well.

As a past boyfriend stated "before i got to know you i thought you were this empty shell of partying and drinking, but know i know you, i find that you have substance" That was something I will never forget him saying. I realized all the gossiping in the world couldn't harm me if they ones who i truly care about knew me for exactly what i was.

The only thing that upsets me is when people make assumptions. Not only about me but about my friends and people i care about. I wont go into them in detail because its not worth talking about.

Anyways, Enough about depressing stuff ! Kitty needs to sleep =]

--kitty xx